im a bridge?

Sometimes the hardest thing in life is to know which bridge to cross and which to burn... I'm the one you burn.- Louis Salinger

life is beautiful

life is truly beautiful despite its imperfections and flaws.

unfortunately, im greedy. im never satisfied. i want more than what this life can offer. knowing that life can never be perfect, im in a constant state of frustration and disappointment. life is beautiful but that doesnt mean i can be happy and enjoy it when it can never give me what i want. its beauty is not enough to please me. thats why i tried to restrain my desire, my wants. because i know my expectations and standards are high. and ive been successful in forcing myself to be contented with what life has given me. but lately, my wants are running loose within me. certain matters happened this year that made me lessen my restraints on my wants. and now im more frustrated than ever. although life remains beautiful, all i can see is its ugly nature. that it has to be imperfect to make it fulfill its purpose.

Death

the good thing about death is its promise of eternal peace. for the atheist at least. for the non-atheist, death brings the possibility of eternal damnation.

unfortunately im not an atheist. and ive been waiting for death for more than a decade.