if only i can go back in time and punch my 2004 self

for some strange reason, i think a part of me knew how things will be. until now, there's a voice at the back of my head giving me hints on what to expect. thats why ive trained myself for years to prepare for a future a part of me knows. this part of me already showed me a path for me to take. but i had to change my course in 2004. i can distinctly remember that during my senior year in college, i had no regrets until that point in time. i could die, i could just drop dead and not worry about anything because i was satisfied with the way i lived. as misinterpreted by some, its not really happy life but its filled with contentment nonetheless. and ever since 2004, it was just a series of wrong turns, wrong decisions, and what used to be a peaceful existence became a life filled with regret. i really should just listen to myself