i remember those...

an indication that you're seeing someone for too long is when she starts to remember the underwear you own. or im just someone who likes to make things short and temporary

'cause two out of three aint bad

if i were serious, i would go for three out of three, try to perfect it, make a real relationship out of it. but, i realized im only capable of giving two out three.

sex, lies, power, control, deception, money and lust.

if anyone enters this web, someone will end up dead. no doubt about it. someone has to die sooner or later. and anyone who survives wont be the same again. i think this is the game that ambitious people and bored individuals of our modern society have in common.

i want to ride a tricyle, i want to ride a trike

i shall set as my goal for the year 2010...to ride a tricycle. it wont be easy. aside from im sooo out of shape, i need to find one more participant. well, i have a year to accomplish this. and its only january. i think this is a very realistic goal.

ummm....huh?

Stupidity is like nuclear power; it can be used for good or evil. - Dilbert

Convenience powered by feigning ignorance. it just takes the pressure off my shoulders. it lowers people's expectations. and lowered expectations is the key to happiness. conan o brien's right. the dumber the person is, the happier he or she becomes. stupidity is a powerful thing.

dont pretend you ever forget about me

We do it in the dark, with smiles on our faces.
We're dropped and well concealed in secret places.


Don't pretend you ever forgot about me
We don't fight fair.

i think...

most of the inhabitants of our country are naive.

Thats it! ive had it!

"That's it!
I've had it with these motherfucking snakes
on this motherfucking plane!"

Times are strange
We got a free upgrade for
snakes on a plane.
Fuck em, I don't care.
Bought the cheap champagne,
we're going down in flames, hey.

So kiss me goodbye.
Honey, I'm gonna make it out alive.
So kiss me goodbye.
I can see the venom in their eyes.
Goodbye.

It's time to fly,
to make the stars align
with the turpentine
lounging in their suits and ties.
Watch the whore's parade
for the price you paid, hey.

Oh, I'm ready for it
Come on, bring it. 

year twenty six

from what i remember, people didnt like me when i was 26. it was the time i got tired of everyone. it was the time i remembered why i decided to shut up a decade earlier (it was because no one listened). it was the time i truly stopped caring (it was because everyone was simply a disappointment. including me). it was the time when...everything actually began. i tried to avoid becoming that person. but well, it is as if it was preprogrammed to happen. since then i never stopped for no one and for anything. because i realized, theres really no one to stop for and nothing really matters. everyone and everything...essentially dispensable. year 26 was the time when i adopted the philosophy of the seventh hat.

im the mad hatter

right now, im wearing or using a total of six different "hats". on a daily basis, i wear three and i dont think there came a time that i had to use 6 in a single day. problem is, even with just three, my body cant keep up with me already. right now, im not feeling well (in addition to the feeling of weirdness ive been experiencing last weekend. its really more of an eerie feeling). the only solution i can think of to address my weak physical self is use the seventh hat. i never thought it will ever come to this point this early.

ive got a feeling

ive been feeling weird since yesterday. its not because of the cold i just got. its a weird feeling because...i dont know what it is. its like the feeling i felt a few years ago that made me panic and caused a lot of emotional turbulence. this feeling is as weird as that but not the same type. that feeling i felt back then somehow relates to what was about to happen. and strangely enough, now that i think about it, it was a "prophetic" kind of feeling. it was like feeling what i was going to feel in the future. problem is, i have no idea what caused the feeling since the event that will induce it has not occured. but now that i am halfway to that future, im starting to understand what caused that feeling. its weird but..point is, im having another one of them weird feelings and this one is of a different nature

its too late, theres no escape, from what they have done...im going deeper underground

I'm the hand up Mona Lisa's skirt. I'm a surprise, Kevin. They don't see me coming: that's what you're missing. - John Milton

Don't get too cocky, my boy. No matter how good you are, don't ever let them see you coming. That's the gaffe, my friend. You gotta keep yourself small. Innocuous. Be the little guy. You know, the nerd... the leper... shit-kickin' serf. Look at me. Underestimated from day one. You'd never think I was a master of the universe, now would ya? - John Milton

im never wrong

"wrong" is one of those concepts that depends on witnesses. - Catbert

oh well

im back to my old flirty ways. at least im starting to get my old self back and so far im doing it like i used to. but thats the thing, the fact that im in good control of things means...it doesnt mean anything. the moment i start to get bored, off i go to search for someone new and interesting. but then again, having something meaningful isnt really for me. so why be bothered by the meaningless? its like that billy madison quote: "I feel like an idiot. But I am an idiot, so it kinda works out."

hahaha

found a new playmate! hahaha. i wonder what interesting things she can bring me. this time i have to make sure that the spider doesnt become entangled in his own web. come here my dear pretty, lets play a game to beat the boredom. im going to make sure its going to be worth your while. or maybe not. hahaha.

i have to thank you october. you gave me what i need. i hope this break you gave me will last long enough to make november not as difficult as the way i predict it will be. well, so far, november is being cooperative.

what if Chuck Darwin was God

with the recent weather abnormalities, people are starting to talk about global warming and the current environment crisis. some still have doubts but at least now they are starting to pay attention.

i think we shouldnt do a thing. lets all remain stubborn and ignore the environmental issue. lets all continue our destructive ways and aggravate the environmental crisis. lets hasten the destructive process man has engaged in by continuing our current lifestyles characterized by consumerism and energy consumption.

ive spent my recent years observing people. and things get interesting when something out of the ordinary happens. a crisis either brings the best of out someone or makes that person crash and burn. quoting Professor Barnhardt from the movie The Day The Earth Stood Still, "it's only on the brink that people find the will to change. Only at the precipice do we evolve". since it seems that people would rather do some blamestorming than taking action to address the situation, we havent reached the brink that will force us to change. we need more natural disasters and calamities to reach our breaking point. we need to lose more lives to learn our lesson.

im sorry, but im just really bored and im one of those men who wants to watch the world burn

no escaping

i really do not know what im going to do now. im just walking aimlessly so that i can tell myself at least im moving somewhere. this year is just filled with failures. its really piling up and im forcing myself not to care so i would not feel how heavy the burden has become. im trying to get myself as occupied as possible so i would not notice how big my problems are.

its already october and if my sense of foresight is still good, i will need a lot of positive energy to face november. i have a big decision to make by the end of the month so october, please let me have some fun, the type i really enjoy (something i havent had for years) or at least give me a little break so that my judgment will not be clouded.

im the greatest

i realized im such a great guy. i honestly think i am. im not perfect. why would i want to be perfect in an imperfect world? it would be pointless. its like wearing a white suit on a farm on a rainy day. it may look great but it doesnt really fit in. its like trying to be a god on earth. its silly because god's dont belong on earth. they may be worshipped but whats the point being worshipped by worthless mortals. and being perfect is plain boring. trying to be perfect is a whole different thing.

anyway, yeah, i am a great guy. i just realized that. if i were to believe what people say about me, my flaws arent bad enough to make me...not great. problem is, my form of greatness isnt really the fun kind. that kinda sucks. and im not great enough to demand stuff. being great sucks.

No!

No matter how hard you plan your life. Life has a plan for you on it's own. Life being what it is - a series of intersecting lives and incidents, out of anyone's control...resistance is futile (Wedding Daze, The Curious Case of Benjamin Button, Star Trek).

If that's what life is all about, then my answer to it is NO! with a big N and O. NO! life's plan sucks.

im starting to find peace. im starting to be ok again. so please life, leave me alone. i want no more surprises of the very disruptive kind. actually, im wondering, how the hell do you plan to execute your plan? i mean, really, is this how you do it? by being a pest?

im one of those people who believe there's no such thing as coincidence and everything happens for a fucking reason. so far life you havent given me a good reason.

the five scariest words

i never thought how scary these five words can be until you actually hear it: pakasalan mo ang anak ko. holy crap! even if it was said in a non-threatening manner, its still the five scariest words put together.