another rage entry?

ever since this semester started, i dont recall an instance where i was glad to be home. everytime i got home, i wished i was somewhere else, like studying in the library. thats why i dont eat my dinners at home from tuesday to thursday. i just dont want to go home or stay home. thats also why im staying longer in the library, opting to study there as long as i could. why dont i want to go home? well, its still a home and not just a house. it just so happens that i dont like it. i just end up getting pissed the moment i enter it. actually, the only place i like in it is my room, where i usually lock myself up. other than my room, the PC is the next best thing in it. since highschool, ive wanted to have a place of my own but im too lazy to do something about it. if i didnt go to lawschool, might have saved some money to move in a cheap apartment.

lost again!

tired of losing battles with myself! Eve6 would probably say, "change your mind!" or change your state of mind. it isnt that easy! especially when my mind has the advantage over me. it just sucks. i mean, here i was trying to improve myself and when im drained and trying to recharge myself to continue my momentum on studying habitually, my mind pulls a fast one on me. since im too drained to resist the intense feeling of laziness and the headaches my mind is throwing at me, i gave up and just slept, hoping by the time i wake up, my mind would be a little clearer. when i got home, still feeling very drained. slept again. hours later, my mind seems to have a good hold on me, i cant force myself to do anything but sleep. not that i dont want to study (actually that's what i want to do right now), but try as i might, (and i did try several times), my mind either makes me feel like i took a sleeping pill, or it hovers somewhere else, meaning i cant focus on what im doing. and right now, my "spidey" sense is tingling. ok, not tingling and not even spidey sense. i dont even know what it is. well, its a rash. a rash that appears on the same spot on my arm from time to time and varies in size. i dont know what it means or what it signifies everytime it appears. but its there now and its itchy. actually, its not a rash, im sorry, its more of an insect bite. and like i said, it appears from time to time and its on the same exact spot on my arm. it wasnt there when i switched on the PC but its there after i talked on the phone. i just dont know why an insect bite looking rash appears and disappears. there's got to be a reason. anyway, im digressing, going back to losing battles to myself. it sucks! im really getting tired of it. other people would say i just lack of discipline. maybe they are right but try telling that to the ones who takes charge of my brain whenever im drained. i mean, thats the only time the inmates run the asylum, when im too weak to protest and counter their stealth attacks. its a never ending conflict inside my head.

pick up line

not sure if someone already thought of this but my line involves saying that im an exorcist. why? cmon, cant guess why? hint: what enters a guy's mind if he sees a sizzling hot chick. or what does he want to do.