what if Chuck Darwin was God

with the recent weather abnormalities, people are starting to talk about global warming and the current environment crisis. some still have doubts but at least now they are starting to pay attention.

i think we shouldnt do a thing. lets all remain stubborn and ignore the environmental issue. lets all continue our destructive ways and aggravate the environmental crisis. lets hasten the destructive process man has engaged in by continuing our current lifestyles characterized by consumerism and energy consumption.

ive spent my recent years observing people. and things get interesting when something out of the ordinary happens. a crisis either brings the best of out someone or makes that person crash and burn. quoting Professor Barnhardt from the movie The Day The Earth Stood Still, "it's only on the brink that people find the will to change. Only at the precipice do we evolve". since it seems that people would rather do some blamestorming than taking action to address the situation, we havent reached the brink that will force us to change. we need more natural disasters and calamities to reach our breaking point. we need to lose more lives to learn our lesson.

im sorry, but im just really bored and im one of those men who wants to watch the world burn

no escaping

i really do not know what im going to do now. im just walking aimlessly so that i can tell myself at least im moving somewhere. this year is just filled with failures. its really piling up and im forcing myself not to care so i would not feel how heavy the burden has become. im trying to get myself as occupied as possible so i would not notice how big my problems are.

its already october and if my sense of foresight is still good, i will need a lot of positive energy to face november. i have a big decision to make by the end of the month so october, please let me have some fun, the type i really enjoy (something i havent had for years) or at least give me a little break so that my judgment will not be clouded.