is it really equivalent exchange?

so what did i give up for a good enough future? i offered my happiness, my health and my safety. initially, i only offered my happiness but i thought it wont be enough. i can eventually manage living without her so it can be argued giving up my happiness is not much of a sacrifice. that's why i also offered my health and my safety in case my happiness isnt sufficient as payment. now it seems all my three offers were accepted in exchange for a future that only a solitary person like me would dare ask. some would say its stupid to enter into such an agreement. yup. i would agree. but im not really in a position to bargain. at least its something good enough.