if i had a superpower...

i was a kid who collected comic books so i grew up reading about superheroes. i was fascinated by their superpowers of course. i thought every kid goes through this phase of wanting to have superpowers. not sure about korean kids. i saw somewhere that they dont have superheroes similar to the ones depicted in american and japanese comic books. i think their heroes are more realistic in nature like war heroes. if i remember correclty, or if the show i saw is accurate, south korea doesnt really have a superhero that has a superpower

anyway, i dont remember what superpower i wanted when i was in grade school. i collected a lot of comic books and my bias was the xmen. well, x-men blue team to be more specific. my favorite character was nightcrawler (and he was no longer part of xmen by the time i was collecting comic books) for marvel and batman for DC. i think batman is the only superhero i like in the DC universe. even if i had a lot of comic books, i dont recall playing pretend that i was a superhero with a superpower. i recall playing detective. hmm. its only now that i realized that. that cant be right. maybe i really just cant recall.

i remember liking fire a lot when i was in high school. so i naturally wanted to have the ability to create and control fire as a superpower. wait. now, i remember, i wanted super speed when i was in grade school. i didnt care about super strength. fuck that. everyone wanted to have super strength. i didnt like quicksilver and the flash but i wanted super speed as my superpower. going back to high school...i wanted to have pyrokinesis as my superpower. but i didnt like pyro. hmm. i liked the superpower but i didnt like the characters that possessed them in the comic books.

i stopped collecting comic books in high school because of...anyway, it was traumatic for me... things just changed after that. i started seeing things differently. crap. i guess this post is going to my other blog. i mean, after that...i dont even know what to call it...hatred just consumed me. i trusted no one. i lost my cheerful self and judged people with their actions. thinking about it now just makes me think im correct to have changed myself. mankind is a hopeless cause.

i originally intended to post about what superpower i want now but after remembering something...my brain is back to its twisted self that i find it difficult to write something nice and sane.