not really. its just i made the effort of seeing the one im sort of dating before i leave for a southern province tomorrow. and when i was about to leave her and before she gave me a parting look with a sweet smile on her face, i said "bye-bye" to her. i dont normally say goodbye unless its for good. i hope it was just a meaningless utterance and not life's way of speaking through me. it kinda bothered me while i was in the mall looking for a nice traveling bag.
i tried to see her earlier today because i was thinking that if my plane crashes (due to the bad weather), at least i was able to see her recently. but then again, i was just out with her recently too. i watched TDKR with her, and with her older sister who acted like a chaperone, on TDKR's release date. the fact im exerting some effort to win her heart makes me wonder whether im as "not serious" as i thought i was.
she even teased me that im in love with her and im going to miss her during the two days im going to be miles away from her. its just two days! cmon! but then again, i cant shake her off my head after our first date. damn it! this cant be happening...im really liking someone again...for the fourth time. i know this is going to end in another "my back has been breaking from this heavy heart" because "I'm hopelessly hopeful, you're just hopeless enough. But we never had it at all".
and the pertinent portions of the song I've Got A Dark Alley And A Bad Idea That Says You Should Shut Your Mouth (Summer Song) by FOB are (with personal edits):
"I took a shot and didn't even come close at trust and love and hope. The record won't stop skipping and the lies just won't stop slipping. And besides my reputation's on the line. I can fake it for the public. Force a smile while im half dead from comparing myself to everyone else around me.
My back has been breaking from this heavy heart. I'm hopelessly hopeful, you're just hopeless enough. But we never had it at all"
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