T:1, Universe: one point less

im going to win this round God. watch me defy You again. this time, i wont budge. let me be clear, it was You who accepted my challenge to resist Your will. send all Your signs, it wont matter. that dream You gave me last year was crap. i dont want that happy ending of Yours. its a lie. like that bullshit feeling You placed in me to support that dream. im going to destroy that awareness You gave me. it was promising but life doesnt offer anything that's too good to be true. making me aware where im heading is not enough incentive when You know i dont deserve such a life with the way Youve reminded me of all the screw ups ive done. so watch Yourself lose to me. yeah God, im that confident. it will break me but i dont care. i wont play by Your rules anymore. but come to think of it. this is what Youve wanted all along. I was never meant to play on Your side. i was meant to play for the opposition. that explains all the hatred and anger and the failures. well, after im done fixing myself, im going to fulfill that purpose.