the replacement

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i watched this portion of Rated K about doppelgangers a few days ago and it got me thinking, what if im a doppelganger? of course thats not possible because i have a reflection on the mirror and i have a shadow. that's proof enough im not a doppelganger. but what if, i have assumed the identity of the original person and that is why i have a shadow and reflection, like ive transplanted myself in this world already by replacing the original me. i mean, i started out as a doppelganger and i have successfully replaced the original human by assuming his identity and destroying the original. and then, because of that successful replacement, i was able to incorporate his memories to my mind, to complete the process of the assuming his identity, and it also created the effect of giving me his shadow and the ability to have a reflection. so that would explain why there was a personality change years ago, from an extrovert to an introvert (which i didnt notice, because from my point of view, nothing really changed, it was only when people pointed out to me that i have changed did i notice the difference). makes sense doesnt it? the doppelganger has always been considered as the opposite of the original person it is copying. what if that was the case? if that is the case, that would explain why i feel that i dont fit in this world, because im not naturally part of this world. as a doppelganger, i merely introduced myself to this world and assumed the identity of someone who is really fixed in this world.

there are some who say a doppelganger is a homunculus, a being with no soul. well, i would say that is true as long as the original person being mimicked still exists. by replacing the original and destroying him, the doppelganger is in effect taking everything from the original, including the soul, so he truly becomes the original. only difference is, he is the opposite when it comes to the personality. so far, that's the way i understood it. so does that mean i cant have a doppelganger anymore? because even if i have become the original, i am still in essence a doppelganger. i dont know, maybe im just trying too hard to find an explanation for my eccentric existence.